I’ve never really been one for New Year’s resolutions. Do you know why? Because I’ve always done what I wanted to do. Never waited, never made big plans, never procrastinated… Simply turned my desires, my wishes, my ideas into action and my reality.
Last week I told you how my life changed a month ago with a diagnosis of stage 4 uLMS cancer with metastasis in the lungs and no chance of recovery. I also asked for information and tips. Thank you very much for all the input. I am gathering them and will place them on a website.
Friends and family have asked me if I have any last wishes. My answer? No, because like I said whatever I longed to do I did. I can look back on my life and feel no regret. This explains why I feel a sense of peace and a lack of urgency because there is nothing I have to resolve or achieve.
However, the very first time we heard of the cancerous tumor, my first thought was: “𝙜𝙚𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙙𝙖𝙛𝙤𝙠𝙠𝙖 𝙤𝙪𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙚!” Unfortunately this was out of my control because the oncologist thought it was too big of a risk.
Since the C-word was mentioned there was no conventional treatment because there was no plan for this rare type of cancer and the specialists were still analysing the tumor. People who know me know I am not one to sit around and do nothing and hell, my project manager genes kicked in! Here is what I did
* talk to people,
* joined a uLMS support group, https://lnkd.in/e5z6jT9S
* cleared my head, my heart and my soul,
* let my people know how loved they are,
* asked for and accepted help (easier than I thought),
* inform my clients and received so much love in return,
* put my storytelling and coaching business on hold,
* write down my thoughts,
* embarked a month ago on an alternative and science-based regime to boost my immune system and to put the breaks on cancer growth.
And now, this I really do believe, because of my strict and disciplined dieting and vitamin C intravenous infusion, my relatively young age (most women with this kind of cancer are older), my physical condition, my positive mindset the tumor has only grown millimeters in the past 4 weeks which makes it now operable.
Tomorrow January 11th is the operation, not without complication, and even though I am scared shit, I still have faith that it’ll all go well.
Transferring the management of my Steal Away business into the capable and loving hands of a friend. Trying not to dwell on tomorrow.
My resolutions this week?
Go with the flow of whatever happens tomorrow.
Keep my loved ones close.
Focus on recovering from the operation
Meditating and praying
Loving my people and people in general
Making it up the stairs to our apartment 😉
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Foto of my son Jaden Meijer and I blowing in the wind.